transitions are scary

i have transitioned into my last year of my 20’s. doing my best to solidify relationships and security to a degree as i would know it, for my future self and her goals. let me tell you, it is not an easy space to feel through. i have cried more these last two weeks that i have all year thus far because i am afraid. i am scared to make wrong decisions more than i am okay with the decisions i make. transitioning from a life you wanted to a life you deserve is the weirdest feeling. i have never been so overcome with doubt and fear. it’s such a conundrum. i know i am capable and willing, i have gotten this opportunity by the skills i have and the mindset i’ve forged yet i feel unworthy. i think intense, overall change just scares me more than it should. it’s pattern is to not be good change, yet i am learning otherwise. allowance is what’s called for within me for this change. allowance to be a bit afraid, to make mistakes, to not know. the unknowing is the root, yet i will learn. that is what’s exciting. that i will grow into this space i have called for myself. i asked for this and i have received. i will be grateful as i move within it.